So, after a rather chaotic, if not disastrous New Years Eve, Lou had made numerous promises to herself about the changes she was going to make for 2013. On New Years Day, she had sat herself down at her dining table with a blank notebook and written out a page of resolutions she planned to stick to. These ranged from; “Start every day with a glass of hot water and lemon” and “Not a drop of alcohol will pass my lips in January, February and March”, through to; “I will NOT sleep with any man I know is an ‘Unsuitable’ this year.”
Lou was back to work today after an extended break, and despite it only being the 7th January, she’d started the day by throwing three empty bottles of Sauvignon Blanc into the recycling bin and fishing out a dry, brown and shrivelled lemon from the back of the salad draw. Oh well, she’d told herself, resolutions were meant to be broken and no one really likes a sensible bore anyway, do they?!
It had been an interesting week to start the year off with. She’d met up with Ben, and although the night had ended in tears, she’d left feeling calmer and more in control than ever. They’d discussed their relationship (his word), and Lou had talked through how she felt the whole thing was becoming a farce. Let’s be honest, having a two-year affair with another woman’s husband isn’t really good for anyone’s ego, even if he had made her promises over and over again. Lou had told him, through a little bit of hyperventilating and running mascara, that she didn’t want to be the other woman any more. How snatched moments with him, however passionate and exciting, were just that – moments. Ben had attempted to appease her and explain how it wouldn’t be like this forever. It was just the way the situation had to be at the moment, whilst his wife was still so unstable (again, his word). He even rolled out the L-word, which for a second took Lou aback. Luckily, she had managed to get her head together and be forceful in her insistence that they were finished. After nipping to the ladies to dry her eyes and reapply her makeup, Lou had returned to the table to say goodbye. Ben had stood up to walk out with her, but she had given him a kiss and told him to stay put. She’d felt empowered as she got into her car. She’d got her mobile out, scrolled down to Ben’s number in her address book and hit the delete button. Then to be doubly certain, she’d looked through her messages and deleted all the saved conversations – no way to be tempted if she couldn’t get in touch with him, she’d thought. She’d felt quite proud as she drove away, and tried hard to stamp down the little voice in her head, reminding her of how amazing that goodbye kiss had been. Kisses full of passion and promise don’t mean anything if they’re not backed up by real actions, she’d told herself. Then she’d told herself she meant it.
On Friday and at a lose end, Lou had decided she should dust off the gym membership card that was hiding somewhere in the back of her purse. Her, and every other person in the world it had seemed when she had arrived at the car park! Struggling to get through the turnstiles without getting stuck and making a fool of herself, she eventually found herself upstairs on the treadmill and tasked herself with getting through the hour without having a heart attack and dying. As she felt her lungs burning and much more of her flesh wobbling than had done a few months ago, Lou looked around at her fellow gym goers. There were plenty of other January Junkies, who like her were looking rather red and sweaty, sporting pained looks on their faces and stealing quick glances at the clock. It wasn’t these that Lou really noticed though. It was those, like the girl in front of her, who despite running at a decent speed, had a full face of makeup on, hair scraped up stylishly and not a bead of sweat on her body. Oh, and she was wearing a crop top. Lou spent the rest of her hour in the gym thinking up embarrassing ways for Crop Top Girl to fall off said treadmill (not causing any serious injury of course). As she climbed off the cross trainer, dripping with sweat, hair scraped back and yet still managing to frizz all over the place, she’d actually giggled as she imagined Crop Top Girl unceremoniously breaking wind during her warm down routine, which wouldn’t have been out of place in the karma sutra. Seriously, she thought, does anyone need to bend and twist quite so vigorously in public? Still, she’d left the gym feeling invigorated, and when Anna had called to see if she wanted to go out the following evening, she hadn’t hesitated in agreeing.
As per usual, by the time Saturday night had rolled around, her calm attitude and good vibes had gone out the window. She’d spent three hours trying on every item of clothing in her wardrobe, had a strop when her false eyelashes had got stuck to her cheek instead of her eyelid and hadn’t been able to find her favourite lippie. Still, somehow she’d managed to make it to the bar and meet Anna, only running twenty minutes late and managing to avoid Anna’s annoyed stare by offering to buy the first round. They’d been having a great night, dancing, giggling and drinking (you probably guessed by the bottles in the recycling bin that sobriety wasn’t going to work for Lou at the moment). It was only as Lou span round, glass in hand, that she’d bumped into Steve. They’d met a few times before through friends, and he’d asked her out. So far, Lou had managed to fob him off and they hadn’t actually met up yet. Steve grinned warmly at her, whilst wiping the remnants of her Vodka, Soda and Lime from his shirt. Mortified, Lou had apologised and tried to help. After chatting for a little while, Steve yet again asked her if she was free to meet up in the week. Ignoring the fact that he insisted on calling her Tallulah, she had found herself agreeing. She didn’t know if it was his rather intense green eyes, which she’d only just noticed, or the two double vodkas she’d drunk just whilst they’d been chatting, but she had suddenly felt quite warm to him. After agreeing that he’d give her a call in the week to arrange, Lou allowed Anna to drag her back on the dance floor and carry on their night. As they jumped into a cab in the early hours, Lou’s phone beeped and she smiled seeing a message from Steve; “ Great to see you, look forward to our drink xx” she giggled as she showed it to Anna and concentrated on not losing the contents of her handbag as the cab flew round the corner.
Sunday had been spent recovering from a sore head and cleaning her rather messy house. Lou had made the obligatory weekend calls to family, where she’d assured her mother that no , she wasn’t drinking too much and yes, there were actually vegetables in the fridge.
As she settled back in to her desk on this dreary Monday morning, Lou opened her inbox and wondered what the second week of the year had in store for her…